Right around December 22nd a friend of mine was back in town from Hawaii, and she came over to have lunch, grab some chocolate and let me play the gongs for her. While she was here, and during the time I was playing the gongs, my shoulders began to hurt unreasonably in relation to the way my neck and shoulders have been healing after all of the cervical injuries. Specifically, a sharp, grinding pain occurred out of nowhere on the back of the ribs near the heart, but to the right. It was roughly around where I'd have significant pain after the fall on my head November 3rd, 2009. Most of that has dissipated in recent years...but it came back with a vengeance on December 22nd, along with frustrating and intense pain on the left side of my shoulders. I asked my friend to work on this, and she did.
She has a background in deep tissue massage, and while she worked on me, I experienced intense fear, crying, and memories of abuse. I apologized for all the tears, feeling unnecessarily guilty, but not telling her anything about the memories. She responded by saying that she had felt an intensely negative energy coming from behind me, and grabbing onto my left shoulder and not letting go! She described what the person looked like from whom the energy was coming. I knew who it was by her description. She said that she wasn't strong enough that day to release it for me, but suggested just constantly building my light, which I have already been doing.
I kept up on the path with the Aspect 3 meditation that I began on October 16th, the day after spirit voyage.com's Global Sadhana practice began. Then on January 20th, during the latter half of the KRI Level 2 Teacher Training Module Stress & Vitality in Kansas City, my meditation partner let me know that while she was doing the variation on Sat Nam Rasayan healing with the Guru Ram Das Miracle Mantra, she saw someone hanging onto my shoulders and shaking them violently. She described this person. It was the same description that Kristen gave. I told my teachers. I said I wasn't about to wait for the 'third' confirmation of what I had already known all along...I was still being tracked by this person energetically.
Last Wednesday a friend of mine offered the assistance of an acquaintance experienced in the removal of spirit intrusions/demonic energies. I hesitated at first, worried that her friend would be beset by trouble just through helping me, then I reconsidered. I accepted the help, on the condition that she inform her friend what he might be in for. Then I called for back-up. Reinforcements. Lots and lots and lots and lots of prayer from everyone I could call or text or e-mail that I felt would be on board with assistance. The last person I spoke to before going to sleep was Jim, who wished me a "Good Night". I had been so worried about sleeping, but I slept like a baby!
When I woke up my friend Ramgeet said that I "must believe that the shield of love works and surrounds you always." WAHE GURU!!!
This was the right time. I had surrounded my bed with quartz crystal, my meditation space with rose quartz and Danburite for the energy of love. I believe that this was the right time. Many people and much light were behind this release, Sukhmandir, Kirantana, SIK, KPK, everyone in my training, my Father, Jim & Nancy, Ramgeet, Matt, Ramgeet's friend...and I am stronger myself. A message needed to be sent of love, and it was...
I no longer feel like a puppet on a string...I was a butterfly trapped in a spider's web, but no longer...
I had almost no friends years ago when all of that abuse happened. But I am getting by today with a little help from my friends. And the lessons were there for a reason. They kept me humble. This was the right time, with a lot of love & a lot of strength behind the force to release me. I am grateful to my friend's friend and I believe that the timing was right, and that his efforts to help me were the final push to get that monkey off my shoulders. LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
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